I sit here with a raging whistling and blowing in my ears as though I am on top of a cliff with a violent wind whipping around me, and the waves crashing far below. The music could be coming from a distant village but it's actually coming from my laptop. The roaring in my ears comes from somewhere inside my head. My tinnitus and I are old friends. We're constant companions, but when I'm stressed I do whip up such a storm.

Oh yes, I've progressed enough that I understand that it is me that pulls the curtain aside for the next act somehow, but I don't understand the mechanism of course, and neither do I really see what the next act is. Actually I presume that it's a repeat performance, but I'm just not looking at it. This one is a monthly occurrence brought about by the print deadline.

I've been doing this for 22 years now, and it is only this last week or so that I've really started looking at it. Yes, I know! Sometimes we are just not ready to change.

You see, I'm not good with time – never have been. In the past few months I've found out that I'm a 'creator profile', according to Roger Hamilton's system of profiling. As a creator I am not expected to be good with time. So that's good – I stopped beating myself up about it as much and just nodded and accepted my time issue more benignly as you would an old uncle who wanted to talk about nothing more than his stamp collection – a bit boring but he's a sweet old guy and so just humour him for a bit. Looking back I see that was probably the first step in being able to find out what this act is about. I had released my inner attack on myself for not measuring up – self-acceptance.

Then a week ago I was speaking with an advertiser from Perth, Chris d'Souza, and he was telling me that there was a gift under each emotion and to not suppress or try to get rid of it or push it out the door. In fact he suggested welcoming the emotion like an old friend and inviting it in and getting to know it. After I work out what the emotion is telling me, then Mr Fear will dip his hat and take leave of me.

Both Chris and Andrea Mathews, my guest in the last webinar (you will find a recording here) were strong about our needing to find that inner core of our being and be at peace and at one with ourselves, the Divine inside us, and then we would manifest what our soul wants. By staying in the present moment that way, we overcome the belief that everything needs to be hard and we thus come into the flow. We always know the next step to take, as somewhere in our being we know that we are already fulfilled, but just need to learn how to receive it.

Now that's all very well but my chattering mind wants an actual answer and a technique to get to it. By reading and listening to their words again it somehow sinks into me that the technique is simply to take my attention within me, to a power spot in my belly, the hara, and just relax and love. I am feeling the tension and fear that are gripping my heart sink down to my hara, and there I can sit in a beautiful state – forever – except for this deadline. OMG, deadline! I come back to the physical plane, and I can hear that the storm has settled. It's a calm day inside my head again with just a quiet ocean breeze.

As always I commend many of the articles and ads in this magazine to you as life-changing experiences and have that fervent hope that you will get breakthroughs and growth. This month, though, I am convinced you will. Why? There is so much fear in the community right now that the potential for our evolution is enormous. It's not for nothing that Spirit provided us with the title, 'Deep and courageous living'* for this issue. Enjoy!

With love




* Thank you to Leslie Caplan for that phrase. She is the author of the opening article, and she uses these words in her bio.